I'm back at it

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So today is Tuesday March 25,2014
Last week i decided it was time to suck it up and go back to curves!!!
I tried Planet Fitness for a couple months and While i enjoyed it, I just knew Curves is where i felt comfortable and knew it was where i felt at home!!
So Today was workout #2 and the most amazing thing is that i can do this... I am now able to workout without having to sit and rest after every 2 machines... I can finish my workout in 40 minutes including my stretching, instead of the 2 hours it used to take me!!
Also i can do each and every machine, I never thought that would be possible.
It seems like i surprise myself every single day with my amazing and yet at times simple accomplishments!! Back on 10/31/11 i was 552 pounds and when they weighed me on
3/20/14 i am 416 pounds... that is crazy!!! They also took my measurements which look like this!!!

10/31/11                                          3/20/14
BMI 96.24                                     BMI 71.4
Arms 24.25                                   Arms 22.25
Bust 70                                          Bust 61
Waist 70                                        Waist 59.25
Abs 80.5                                        Abs 68.25
Hip 81                                           Hips 66.25
Thighs 42                                      Thighs 38
Weight 552                                    Weight 416

So WOW what a difference and the amazing thing is its only gonna get better.....
So i will continue to update you on my progress but as for today i love how i am not gonna let anything stop me!!!!

HIT A MILESTONE TODAY

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Well Today started like any other day.... UNTIL
I got on that bathroom scale...... I was just hoping it didn't go up I just wanted it to be down....
Well i stepped on it and i was down 3 pounds since yesterday!!! WHAT!!!!!
OMG so i stepped on it 2 more times to see if it was correct and guess what.... It was right...
So that means i have lost 100 pounds since my surgery on june 5,2013
I am just so darn proud of myself!!
I knew the time would come that i would finally hit this 100 pound mark but i had no clue it was gonna be such an amazing feeling!! I feel like i made such amazing changes just within the last few days and it feels good that they have really paid off!! this feeling i have today is better than any food could ever taste... I see alot of people hitting their 100 pound lost mark and i am always so happy for them but i guess until u hit that u really don't understand how sweet the feeling is!!
So i guess for me i knew my ah ha moment should have been when i had my surgery but for some reason i can't say it was. My moment came when i watched the show "my 600 pound life" just seeing the lady not taking the surgery and her life seriously... I said to myself is that what i'm doing sabbotaging myself? why am i so scared? I realized i don't want this surgery that i spent so much time recovering from to be for nothing!! I want to be successful... I don't want to be the one to gain back all her weight and then some. I don't want to live that life again, I CAN'T live that life again...
So thats when i knew it was time to take drastic measures and get rid of all the JUNK!!! I am so proud that my family is on board with me!!! It really makes things so much easier!!
If i had to give others any advise it would be don't ever give up on yourself and if there's something you really want then you need to go for it and FIGHT!!! i fought to get this surgery and i'm fighting to live a happy healthy life, and that tastes better than any PIZZA, BURGER, FRIES,OR  ICE CREAM will EVER taste!!!

DON'T EVER GIVE UP!!!!

BACK AT IT!!

Today is wednesday January 22,2014...

I finally got my butt back in the gym!! It felt amazing... Last night i had a real breakthrough, I realized the snacking, the eating candy and drinking soda had to stop!! Not because its "PART OF THE RULES" but because its best for ME!!! I don't need that crap and if i'm ever gonna get to my goal i really dont need that!!

I made a video last night and posted it on my yt page of me getting rid of all the junk... tossing the CANDY!!! Let me tell you there was such a huge relief off my shoulders cause i know i don't need that to be happy... Food WILL NOT make me happy, I make me happy, the people in my life make me happy, living makes me happy. I am enjoying life and each day seems to be a new adventure, I know not everyone may agree with how i have done things but its something that i have had to learn!! Sometimes when people tell you dont do this or don't do that it seems like the more others tell u not to do something u feel like u are gonna do it despise what they say... I need to live and learn. 

So today when i went to the gym it was tough just walking back into those doors... I went straight for the massage chair and i felt so much better!! Then i seemed to get the motivation to get moving... 

I will take this journey day by day... I will not rush this journey...This is my journey and i will do it my way and i will have to live and learn... It may not always be easy but it definitely will be worth it and you know why...

Beacause "I AM WORTH IT"

Getting It Together

So today i got it together!! I decided to step back and take a deep breath, and compose myself....
Thats exactly what i did...
This morning for breakfast i decided to have a protein shake, I was very proud of myself for that. For lunch i had some turkey sandwich meat with some laughing cow cheese. Then for Dinner i ate some pot stickers , and for a snack i ate some celery and carrots with some ranch.... Overall I feel like i had a good day, I made good healthy choices and i even got some exercise in...
I walked around for 20 minutes, I wanted to go to the gym but i didn't make it!!
Thats ok I am just proud that i exercised. Tmrw is a new day, the  problem i am having is that my sleep schedule is so off for some reason i am not able to go to bed till like 4 or 5 am in the morning and then of course i sleep till at least noon and it seems like my day is half over.Tired of this sleep schedule but don't know how to change it... I guess i need to MAKE myself go to sleep early... but it's so hard.
Overall like i said i am very happy with my progress today... Oh the most important thing i forgot is that i stepped on the scale today and it is FINALLY moving again!! WOOOOHOOOO
Today i stepped on and i was down 3 pounds in 2 days.... That really made me feel good and feel like all this is worth it and maybe just maybe making these small changes are helping are making a difference...
Each day i feel like i'm that much closer to know what healthy and hapiness feels like... I need to learn to take the time out for me, that i am worth fighting for!! That i do make a difference today not only in my life but i really hope i am making a difference in others lives too!!!
By the way i am really enjoying writing down my thoughts the last few days!! I hope i'm not boring anyone, but it's nice to get these thoughts out so i can read later and like i said i hope my experiences will help someone else along the way!!!

Decided to prep some healthy snacks to make it easier on myself!! Really easy to grab and go with these snacks...

Found me a nice snack that has chocolate and coconut that is portioned out for me!! That really helps when i can have food or snacks that are portioned out for me...i know some people over do it.. I seemed to find it easier....

Dont get me wrong what i wouldn't do for a bag of BBQ chips or a bag of chocolate chip cookies or OREOS, But thats not gonna happen because i will not allow myself to purchase those things anymore!! 

My life is worth living and my life is more important than those cookies or those chips!!!

Have you made healthy choices today? What steps have you made to live a healthier life??

Thanks for listening to me today!! Have a great night and remember 

"YOU DO MATTER"

Changing my mind

So today is Sunday January 19,2014...

I been doing allot of thinking and reflecting on things and realize that I think I have been sabotaging myself because I am scared of change. I am almost out of the 400's and I think in a way that scares me!! I think change is always scary. I feel like I am entering the unknown, how will others see me when I'm smaller, how will I see myself. Will losing all this weight truly make me happy?? So what I have realize is that I will never know until I get there  I know it's gonna still be a long road and it's not easy but I have to live each day like it's my last. I need to do things today I was afraid to do yesterday. 

I need to let go of the one thing I spent my whole life thinking was my best friend!! "FOOD" 

I will remember what it was like to walk in the gym and not have everyone staring at me like I was some kind of freak, or walking a mile and how good it felt to finish. Those feeling are so much better than food will ever be!!!

Looking at myself in the mirror and loving myself and saying  "TODAY I CAN DO ANYTHING" and truly believing it!!!

Thanking god for putting such amazing people who truly love me in my life, because that's what really matters!!! Also the fact I can compare pictures of myself and see a huge difference!!! Today I truly love myself, and that feels amazing to say!!

I feel so beautiful!!! There is no one that will ever take that away from me!!!

Alicia